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Birthday!!

2010-01-27T23:56:00.004+08:00

This post is dedicated especially to celebrate Enoy's 20 years on earth............

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NONYY!!!! you will forever be loved by me and by those people who mattered!! pleasee pleaseeeeeeeee be happy and I hope you will attained what you aimed to have. My prayer will always be with you! LOVE YOU NOYYY!!!

updates~!

2010-01-07T19:57:00.009+08:00

HELLO!!!

I MISS YOU LOADS!

This blog pun tak active. Si Naqee saja active. Haha.

Updates from here?

I'm doing great and I'm already counting months till I go home. I miss home so much. =( I miss you guys so much. How was your New Year guys? How did you spend it? Mine at home. Lazy to go out. Hehe. What pictures should I post?

This is my Uni. Much smaller than UBD actually.

The view from the hill behind my house. The grey roof from right side of this picture is my house.

Our netball team. Mostly Bruneians. I'm sure you'll recognise some faces.

The place where the Greenwich Mean Time is.

My Coursemates

I went ice skating!! SIUK hee.

It has been snowing that classes have been canceled for two days straight. No I didn't get to make snowman. It's not that thick here. Now, melted sudah. So sad.

Yes, I know I look bulat. I get it. LOL. Been sleeping alot I say. Hehe.

I guess that is it from me.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!

Takecare selalu. I'll see you all soon again! Loadsa HUGS & KISSES.

xoxo, J.

A year behind, a year ahead

2009-12-31T13:40:00.035+08:00

As usual, come every 31st of December, is the time for recapping and ranting about everything that happened in the present year and writing about hopes and wishes for the upcoming year.

Having said that, that's exactly what I'm going to do now..nyahahha..

2009 is, as a whole, a good year for me. Good times well spent with the bestfriends and the homies. The year saw many firsts in my part. Some are good firsts and others are simply heartbreaking. I will simply post a few highlights in my life throughout the year. Let's now get down to business!!

January : Celebrated Enoy's Birthday ( First celebration w/o Esya & Emah)

February: Saw my bestfriend in whole wide world, Enoy, launched her book at the book festival

March: Bought my first touch-screen LG mobile phone

April : (i) First intimate hand-holding

........with Enoy.....aggagaga

(ii) Nanad's Birthday Bash

the never before seen photo of the bash that night :P

(iii) my first taste of ice-cream on a hot plate

(iv) my first DPMM football match

May : (i) First UBD Jersey

(ii) First Empire get-away with the friends

(iii) My birthday bash!! (no Esya & Emah either)

June : (i) First of many hangouts after Esya & Emah came home for the holidays

(ii) Bday Esya, Wecan, Transformers

July : (i) Zeti's birthday

(ii) Friendship Day

August : (i) BBQ @ Berakas

(ii) Kajarah moved into her Rimba paradise :D ( no picture)

(iii) My first Bridex visit

(iv) Birthday Surprise for Emah. (Where's the pictures?Guys, I think we forgot to take pictures)

September: (i) Sungkai with the Bestfriends and family

(ii) Alina Batrisya's arrival

(iii) Hari Raya :D

October : (i) My first up-sailing

(ii) My first 9KM+ hike @ McFarm

(iii) Mimie's Birthday Surprise

(iv) UBD Amazing Race. ( My skin suffered a blackened impact because of this..haha)

November : (i) My first Kayak lesson

(ii) My first minor accident (I don't have the spirit to take picture of my baby car got scratched and bumper got dislocated :'| )

(iii) My first permanent perm :D (no picture!!! gagagga)

(iv) My first Gala Night

(v) Exams Week :(

December : (i) Zeti's Engagement :D

(ii) My first camping!!

(iii) My first independent BBQ @ Serasa with the bestfriends & my first beach-bike ride

(iv) My first supplement Exam (Maths Discrete Paper) since I got into Uni :'(

Soooo...that basically sum up my 2009. There were more good memories actually; birthdays, movies, chillings, lunches, dinners, crazy2 times....all that made my year. Thanks to every single person who helped me in every way possible, who made me smile, who made me laugh, who made me cry, who offered me advice and shoulders to lean on, who offered to pay for my food, who considered me as a friend, THANK YOU ALL! I wouldn't be a person I am today if it weren't for you. May more good memories will be developed in the years to come. May many more pictures will be taken to hold that memory for as long as we shall live.

As for my wishes for the year 2010, may all of us be in the best of health, may the family be blessed with the kind of happiness that last forever, may I be able to achieve whatever I aimed for, may we all find success and happiness in what ever we do.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 EVERYONE!!!!

Love,

Naqiah

Hari Raya! =D

2009-09-20T13:36:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA 2009!!

MAAFKAN SGALA SALAH SILAP C NAQEE...KAN INI HARI RAYA....=D SESUNGGUHNYA SUNGGUH BESAR PAHALA ANDA APABILA ANDA MEMAAPKAN DOSA2 SESAMA SUDARA ISLAM....

HAVE A BLAST EVERYONEEEE!!!!!

Things I'll miss about Ramadhan:
- Sungkai Buffet! (makan murah,parut knyg, and berabut2 kaut makanan HAHA)
-Kurma
-Sahur...NOT (bgi mengantuk n nda mau msuk lecture)
-tidur ptg.. (because I don't usually tidur in the afternoon. masa posa sja ku tidur ptg..parut kusung)

Things I'm looking forward to for hari Raya:
-MINI POPIAH (kame punya popiah alum begureng =< )
- sesi berziarah...( Raya morning will see a very sad epsiode of maaf-maafan..='> )
-Tapak kuda Tua Temburong.... =8)
- open houses
-GREEN PACKET!!!!! (take note that I recived $12 sja last year @*&$##@^%&(*#@#$)
- out-and-about-ing with them girlie besties...nyehehehe

Tapi, they are leaving on the 26th............huh.......=<

AND2 family d kampung sudah raya..!!! =(

-NAQEE-

Reminiscing O.O

2009-08-28T21:59:00.006+08:00

that was me (naqee) btw...yg ckp psal tronky...

HAHA

oh..oh...last wednesday kame reminiscing. We had a good laugh with the old pictures..and birthday videos yg dri Form 4 smpi Form 6. Ada tia yg gamok-bulat-berdouble chin (HAHA)...yg chubby...yg pose ntah apa...yg kurus2..aggaga..

Siok eh msa dlu2...msa msih smua satu skulah...msih sng berjumpa. Dulu2 kme byk bergambar...camwhore lah nya urg puteh. Skrg ane jarang dah..mun ada pun ckit2 sja. Ytah kalau liat gmbar2 dulu mcm...jeles ku....mcm....wat happen to us? Jrg dh dpt berjumpa...masing2 cbuk...msing2 pyah kn begarak...nyehh...me no like this feeling....

On a happier note, ane nah gmbar2 yg buat kme tekenang msa lampau...gila...me like these pictures =D

Aku nda tau lah ah...whether aku yg suka palok urg...or urg suka palok aku..GAGAGGA..p yg penting nya...if people wanna describe apa ertinya BEAR HUG...ytah ne..cane... kme minat bear-hugging dlu2...

And at this very moment..I am CRAVING for these bear-hugs...=')

-Naqee-

tronks..=)

2009-08-28T21:52:00.002+08:00

aku bored =D

skli aku makan tronky...and msih jua aku bored =D

i'll just bore myself to sleep then..with the downpour song on repeat...=(

2009-08-06T15:52:00.002+08:00

I MISS ALL OF YOU

"YOU" as in..

- the one who has kerebo hair like lion HAHA.

- the one who has a boyfriend who owns Honda Accord

- the one who has exhaust fan in her hostel room. So people you know where to fart HAHA.

- the one who used to stay next door in F5 and always wants one night stand hehe XD

- the one who loves ladybug and has alot of scandals XP

- the one who are in EEE. Wonder what is that? Find the person and ask. goodluck.

- the one who left for Scotland few months ago and came back. Aku inda jumpa batang idung pun.

- the one who are in BSc Mathematics and also other courses.

- the one who went crazy and laugh all the way with me.

- what more? ngalih ku pikir.. ahha..

- yang penting aku RINDU KAMU SEMUAAAA... XD

Sorry kalau ada yang missed out haha. Aku ingat kamu masih ne. ;)

wonder baby

2009-07-17T20:11:00.002+08:00

Remember when Sharon posted this.

Now watch this. You can't resist the adorableness of it. Betul tak english saya?

Enjoy.

14 more days till 2nd year reopens. ;) Sorry to remind you guys. Hehe.

~cousin wedding~

2009-07-08T17:28:00.006+08:00

~~~~Cousin's Wedding~~~~

**Congratulation cousin**

The Bride and the Groom
(The Groom is my cousin)

Well it was a very fun wedding.... all the family members was there and i was just taking picture wit Han's camera (was playing around wit it half of the nite coz after that i have no batt already -_-" haizz....i cant believe i forgot abt that part....heheheh... anyway... well... at that time i notice how HARD it is to take the pic at nite...and more than half of the pic i took cant be used at all >.<"
well, here is me wit my cousin eric and evon( hehehe.... does not like her name to be spelled that way XD..but oh well~~) we were outside coz we were trying to run from the "games" XD too shy to play....malu malu....wahaha....hm.... oh and i like my dress for the nite both evon and my other cousin, helped me pick it out ^^ heheh....

hm.... i guess that is all for this post..... ok cya ppl~~ hehehe....oh and i miss you guys!?!? long time no see already~~~ XD

Ice Age 3

2009-07-05T19:01:00.003+08:00

Verdict = A

*kuchikuchikuu~*

Do Dat Dinosawr

2009-07-03T15:15:00.001+08:00

my holiday

2009-06-23T21:58:00.004+08:00

*angel passing by* for months and months. LOL.

How was my holiday? AWESOME! for June ONLY that is. Been busy. And making myself busy almost all the time.

I went to Miri last week and finally got the taste of Iced Vanilla Latte and Chocolate Cream. Yumyum! No doubt there's a handsome barista there hahhahahahhaha. Okay okay chill.

Last weekend, I was involved in an annual church event. It went well and I HAD FUN! WOOHOO! There were session by Michael Voon. Do you know him? I'll give you a brief info about him. He is a performance coach for Mawi, Jaclyn Victor, Malaysian Idol, So You Think You Can Dance (Malaysia), etc. Damn he's awesome. We learned to act and dance gracefully. I wanna do the flocking.

Michael is the chinese guy next to the yellow shirt. This is my group. Love 'em all. Miss you guys already.

The committee this year. =)

After the event, we chilled at OGDC. Damn we had fun haha.

weee~~ to the left, to the left..

I can't wait for tomorrow. Wee~ I promised my cousin to jalan2. Transformers bebeh! hehe. I'm so excited. So many things coming! Miri too this Saturday with my cousin again. tahbaks here I COME! haha. *random*

Oh my result. Thank you God for helping me with my examinations. I managed to pass and overall D. Not so good but oh well did my best. I learned from my mistakes. =)

More updates next time. This blog is too quiet hehe. Oh well.

Love ya all.
meens.

woho! kupi day...

2009-06-20T20:14:00.004+08:00

usulnya aku tah sja yg meng-update blog ane...

my fellow bloggers.....aku mau tau jua your life stories..so please write something in here.....()=)

Anyways..I had my first Starbucks this morning..ehe..I know, I know......it sounds pathetic...tapi seriously, today was the only oppurtunity I had to have Starbucks..agagga..

So, I ordered Iced Caramel Macchiato, because I know anything with caramel will taste fantastic and yeah, my caramel Macchiato..........is.......heavenly.......DELICIOUS.... =D

Sekali my momma was kinda critical about the price...it was funny!

She said, "dulu2 kupi 50 sen jua nganya......"

And I said..."ouh...well...."

Well..I planned to order every single drink on the menu in the future..kan jadi kupi addict ku..agaggaga

-Naqee-

wait no more...=D

2009-06-16T21:42:00.002+08:00

Syukur alhamdulillah!!

Results were released this afternoon..and despite the non-A-ness ( ehe), I am very happy with my result..my overall grade has improved, my physics grade is a surprising C, and no E's for the 2nd semester (yay-ness)...

However, my Maths grade nda lawa...=(
I was hoping I could at least score a B with it..but nooo...im at the far end..a heart-breaking D...

This is definitely not confidence- boosting...considering the fact that we'll have four, FOUR core maths subject for the 3rd semester. And I think my 2nd year will be super hectic.

I wonder if we'll get our special lunch hour again this coming Sem...hmmmm....

-naqee-

Life so far....=D

2009-06-13T18:04:00.002+08:00

Being 20:

3 cAkes, SWaTCh, hoodieSS!!, ESPRIT,miNI ScraPbOOk, roSe, bROoch, broWnSugaR, TshiRts, sanDaL, $$, and much LOVE.. also not forgeting all the greetings..wee~ siok ee..

And then there are 6 of us..AGAIN....aggagagag...

A very warm welcome back HOME to my beloved, sneaky friends EMAH and ESYA, who are supposed to arrive in Brunei TOMORROW but apparently had gotten home LAST SUNDAY. They decided to surprise us and surprise us they did....

Opening the door upon hearing the door bell, and then seeing them right there in front of me was priceless. Nothing else had made me feel that way so far; that sweet feeling of meeting them again after 8 months, of me not having a clue that I was going to see them that day. I was jumping up and down,hugging them, screaming my head off, with a few tear drops on my face all at the same time because words alone can't epxress the happiness that I felt at that very moment..it had to be shown with actions and sounds..aggagaggaga...

So we had our first complete reunion this morning..it was fun..FUN..hope to have more soon..=D

I guess distance does make the heart grow fonder...and the urgency because of the time limit we have, makes me want to have it all..all at once..it makes me greedy..in a good way.

These are one of the few things I'll never let go..our friendships.. loVe u all!

-13/06/09-

2009-06-07T01:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY

CLEO

Have fun. Goodluck with your future undertakings. Live life to the fullest. No 21 pairs of shoes. Sorry. Can't even buy my own shoes haha.

from all of us.

-_-

2009-06-06T14:37:00.002+08:00

Bureng eh..

burengggg.........

Supp. result kluar udh...alhamdulillah aku nada....

=)

=(

burengggg........i have absolutely nothing to do....

Happy Birthday to TWENTY ONE

2009-06-05T22:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY

TWENTY-ONE

BIRTHDAY

Theo

BESTFRIEND

Have a blast. Enjoy being young adult. XP. Be happy. With your Arvy. Takecare.

**nyasal kan you take picture with my camera haha..

meens.

bday c eshaaaaaa..=D

2009-06-02T11:54:00.005+08:00

AGGAGAG..PRICELESS EH SHOT ANE...AGAGGAG

happy bday AISYAHH!!

party tah eh d sna...aggagagga...love u syahhh...n miss u...=')

holiday mode

2009-05-29T00:24:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone. It's been long I haven't blog. It's not that I have no time. I'm just too LAZY. HAHA. That's a very unreasonable excuse though.

Alot have occurred for two or three weeks holiday.

Nowadays, I'm busy with my dance rehearsal for a wedding. And also upcoming activities next two weeks. In the morning, I'm usually free. And always feeling bored. Also always complaining of boredom.

Two weeks ago I was involved in an accident. How unfortunate that was. Now my car is alright. It's called the "Kiss Butt" accident. I'm not the one to blame though. The man hit my car's bumper at Beribi roundabout. Accident always happen there. I'm still traumatised by that incident though.

And I wanna apologise to Naqiah for not being there for her surprise party. I have no transport and I have to house duties to fulfill. But anyways, Happy Belated Birthday girl. Live the moment. =)

Owh by the way, just to inform some of our St. Angela's Schoolmates that Miss Maya is leaving soon. If I'm not mistaken, 15th June 2009. I think our junior is going to hold a surprise party for her this Sunday. Check in Facebook.

Hmm what else. So far my holiday, can say it's boring. LOL.

I wanna apologise to whoever I hurt/annoyed by my actions/words. Sorry. If you can't forgive me, I'm fine with it. I deserve it. Nothing happen though. I just wanna apologise.

Another thing, I don't know how to say it out. But I've been keeping it inside. Somehow, I don't get what is their problem, always judging me. Whatever I do or plan does not have anything to do with you. I don't bother your life and stop bothering about my life and questioning about me from my friends that does not concern yourself. Get a life and grow up.

Sorry about that. I just need to make things clear. I maybe naive but I don't like anyone to take me for granted.

Anyways, new template. I'm still working on it. Shoutmix kinda have a problem here. I don't why. Is it me or is it the server? I'm sure soon it'll be fine.

Sorry for this long blogpost. And no picture haha.

I'll give you a video then. My favourite video.

Enjoy watching it. It's late. Gonna get some sleep.

meens.

khatam & kawen....<3

2009-05-27T20:46:00.013+08:00

Pada 24 Mei 2009, abg Enoy (Mohd. Izzat Hj. Ramlee) dan bridenya telah selamat di ijab kabul kan....alhamdulillah...

Saya bagi pihak diri saya dan kwn2 saya yg jauh dan yg dekat (agaggaga..wasehh..) ingin mengucap kan tahniah dan selamat pengantin baru...smoga sentiasa dalam berkat Allah SWT...dikurniakan cahaya mata yg byk....rezeki yang murah...dan jodoh berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat....aminnn~~

Di bawah ada sedikit sebyk poto2 pada hari itu..

Ane msa bride and groom bersanding d rumah bride d Bengkurong, Bandar..
(lawa nyee..sma padan...sama cantek....)

ane masa pusing naga..ehe..happy abg enoy =D

Ane drg pose dpan pntu rumah..ehe..pemes msa tu..byk camera clicking..including my pink camera.....=P

Kawan2 Enoy yg asi2 ikut ke bndar mengantar groom ke rumah bride..wehee..fast and furios kme convoi dgn family enoy...aggagagag

kme menyambung vain-ing kame...ehe..sementara menunggu ahli2 kaum kerabat yg lain sampai....

aku bersama bespren tercinta..ehe..lawa tane noy.....basar udh tanee...

ane aku sama zeti yg bebulan2 udah aku nda jumpa...alhamdulillah ya dpt ikut jua ke bndar...wee~

ane aku sma mimie yg sexeh~ ehe...sungguh suka dia bergambar...

aku bersama nanad...=D

aku and shapikah.... (btw shapikah yg drive pada hari itu..thanks shapikah...sian ko ngaleh fast and furious-ing that day....)

and then vain-ing lagii....

dan lagi......dan lagiiiiiiii.......agaggagag

Pada 23 Mei 2009 (bday ku...aggagaggaga), Enoy dan adik-beradik including the groom serta nenek tercinta telah selamat khatam Al-Quran....yeay! Syukur Alhamdulillah..

ane tah usul drg nah...dari kanan : nene Enoy yg d lumut, Edah(kaka enoy), Ijad(groom), Enoy(bespren ku), and Udin a.k.a Ijud (adi enoy)

Aku happy mlm tu...walaupun aku sorg2 nada bedangan...psal drg enoy lawa..agaggagga...

skli aku begambar dgn enoy....bila d lyat shot ane...mcm enoy plg yg kawen..agagagga..bh..apalagi noy......lakas2 tah...=D

Overall siok lah kawen abg enoy..meriah... and dlm kesibukan enoy bekraja2 smpat jua ya kluar menyambut bday ku msa 20th May..ehe..trima kaseh Noy...rest well.... =D

2009-05-22T16:23:00.001+08:00

My holiday is fill with activities.

p/s: aku balum rasa boring. hmmmmp. Normal kah aku nie? HAHA

-n-

so what..right?

2009-05-19T21:02:00.002+08:00

so what if I'm not like other people?

so what if I don't have privileges like other people?

so what if I don't get to do what other people are able to do?

so what??

I've done things...not much..but I've done things. I should be contented with that. Take whatever life offers me. Do not just ask for more, WORK for more. Don't complain, don't get stressed out because of it, just do what I have to do.

I'll be 20-ly aged (HAHA) in a few days. I seriously need to reflect back on the things I've done, haven't done and even the things I've done halfway. All the anger inside me, all the needs, all the wants, all the unsatisfaction...all these I need to review all over again; the causes, the implications, the root of all these feelings...

Having said that, I realize I've so many to improve about myself. My behaviour, my way of thinking and my way of feeling....should be enhanced to better suit me as a grown up person. It might help me be a better human being, and thus be a better student,daughter,sister,friend, etc.

I picked up a lot of valuable lessons in my short life. Some were harsh but useful and self-constructing, some were nice but short-lived, some were pleasant and much needed...all these shaped me into what I am now. If I can change some of it, I would...but as human, I believe, even then, I would still be unsatisfied with what I had, so what's the point?

I regreted some of my choices in the past, regreted unnecessary mistakes I've done, regreted taking things for granted..but so what? I've lived past it, I've succeed in my own ways, and I'm still a good enough person...Regret is regret;asked for forgiveness when I hurt somebody, did not repeat the same mistake, and learned the lessons behind it was what I did. And then, I moved on; although sometimes it took time to move on but I MOVED ON.

So I'm going to be 20. So I'm going to change.

I'm freaking bored...!!! I can write a book full of crap like the above text and bore people..

But...so what?? wagaggagga..crazieee...aku...crazieeeee.....

2009-05-19T18:12:00.002+08:00

im very very very sick, to the extend where, aku mandi air panas pun aku masih rasa sejuk berabis!

dreadfull banar this feeling eh! :(

an unproductive, weight gaining day..=S

2009-05-16T16:20:00.003+08:00

I gained weight....
2 kg.....
that's bad....
real bad....
I'm going to start eating less tomorrow..=')

On a completely different note, I thought I could stay in bed for as long as I want since this is MY HOLIDAY. Apparently not. Today I was awakened at 6.30 AM (!!!) because of this one little duckling that I have to look after, who refused to go back to sleep and on top of that, started crying and won't stop because my mom and sister had to go to work. Then she expected me to play hide-and-seek with her when my eyes could barely open...=(

Not happy...not happy at all......

Hopefully...HOPEFULLY..it will not continue to be like this for the rest of my less-than-3 months-holidays....

I have a tingling feeling that it will though......uhuhuhu..

DUCKLINGGG!! HAVE MERCYY!! MOTHER DUCKKK!!! GET YOUR DUCKLING A NEW NANNY PLEASEE!!

#naqee#

screams

2009-05-12T21:02:00.001+08:00

Can we now say

FREEDOM

Happy~~~~~~!!!

Happy Holiday Everyone!

To my lovely authors don't forget to update your life. =))

HUGS.

meens.

under the weather

2009-05-07T09:44:00.002+08:00

THREE down, THREE to go.

How did I do? I don't wanna think about it. I feel really miserable. Urgh.

This is really driving me mad. I keep asking what if I don't make it to next year? Okay, think POSITIVE think POSITIVE. This is what happen when you're unprepared.

My timetable:

4th May
AB1503
MA1102

5th May
CH1107

9th May
LC1514

11th May
CO1105
CH1108

Been feeling emo-ey lately. Kabush. Eyebags. Sleeping late.

GOODLUCK ALL. =)

meens.

krekkrek

2009-05-02T15:49:00.007+08:00

Haloo mates. Lama sudah I don't update hehe. A month plus plus. I've been living under tempurung. Macam katak. HAHA. Nada wah. Lame brabis ku ah. Anyways, as you can see by our unmoved blog we are all dead asleep. Not. I'm kidding. We are buzzing like a bee. In TWO freaking days, we'll be having exams. In TWO weeks, Semester TWO ends. Sad. I'm gonna miss everyone for TWO and HALF months heehee. I'm sorry for exaggerating.

Why now I rajin update? Well, I'm having a break from revising. I had too much break BTW. I sleep alot during Revision Week. Really tired even if I didn't do much. As soon as I open my notes to revise, I fall asleep. Serious! (Okay I got that word from hanging too much with ppl who loves to use that word.)

I'll keep you up to date whatever happened last two months ago.

Bolasepak Amal: AM Gunners VS. Muara Vella

AM Gunners

Haircuts

Dear Liyana, please keep "the word" to yourself. I know what you're gonna call us.

Easter Day

I was a bunny. =)

Hafiz a.k.a Si Bayar's Birthday Surprise

Big BOY.

Nanad's Birthday Surprise

Cute kan?

Nanad is excited with her new present.

Last Day for LC1514

Sushi baby~ Credits to Billah =)

Class Photo. I love this pic.

Intruders~ HAHA Kidding.

Vainness.

FYI Cleo, Fen and Me, at the moment, deactivated our Facebook. It's for good intention. We need to control our addictions haha. We'll be back. I know you guys missed us already hehe.

Back to revising.

GOODLUCK ALL OF YOU.
WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST.

loves, meens.

huwaaaaaaaaaaa ='(

2009-04-28T13:40:00.003+08:00

I FINALLY realized that there are so many things i need to revise, so many to memorize, so many to read.

My head feels heavy due to this pre-exam flu I'm having, nose constantly running with mucus, and cough attacks from time to time..

GREAT....JUST GREAT........(!!!!!)

Almost lover

2009-04-24T01:38:00.007+08:00

"Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind,images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me,images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never let forget these images, no

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?"

on the end of the note; i think im going crasieee....

goodluck peopleeeeee -n-

updating tah ne!!

2009-04-16T16:02:00.002+08:00

Since c esya menyuruh meng-update, aku tah meng- update....agagagaga

I'm in e-Resource room at the UBD library at ze moment dangani nanad ntah buat apa..agaggaga..

I'm tired and sore all ober psal first time trekking arah Shahbandar kemarin..uhuhuhuhu...sakett kaki ku..but it will not be my last though..psalnya in the end, I had a lot of fun...all thanks to Umairah sal invite aku hiking with her and company walapun ya nda jadi ya ikut......and total gratitude to Mimie sal dangani aku and encouraged me to finish the track..ehe..siok ehh..

UNI UPDATE:

ONE WEEK left to our academic session..then on the 27th Aprill will be the start of our Revision week..uhuhhuu....
Exams will start on the 4th of May...(too soonnnnnn)
Exams for Maths and MIB will be on the 4th......!!!!!!!!! frigginnnn insaneeee!!!
Exams for Computer and English will be on the 6th and 9th respectively
Exam for Physics will be on the 12th...
and thennnnnnnnnn...abessss...nyagaggagga!!!
Our very long vacation will start on the 13th(for me and some though) and for others (mcm nanad) will start on the 16th....

Then...we will be kicked out of hostel.......on the 18th we will have to pack our belongings, and leave.........wohoo....

okkayy...enough for now...psal c nanad udah siap...n ya sdg tunggu aku abes menaip..ehhehe...alryte...wish us all luck in our exams! n i wish u reader all ze best too =)

tanx a lot nad....

2009-03-31T00:22:00.002+08:00

Dear nanad,

Tanx a lot for spilling the beans... =(

agaggaga..nadawah...YES I'M FREAKIN HAPPY!!! n freakin broke.... BUT HAPPY JUA MSIH...aggagag.... can't keep my eyes and hands off my PRECIOUS LG....

One thing mummy advice was "jgn gugur2 kan lagii hp baru ane!!"

AGAGGAGA.. MOM! obviously....I'm nt gonna......my LG is more fragile than my heart....serious! agaggaga..do anything to my heart and i'll get through it....do anything to my LG, i'll be kicking and screaming....mark my words...wagaggaga..

so..in conclusion...'tanx' nanad...for spilling the beans...

waggaga...nadawahhh....ehe..I'm sooo freakin delirious right now..forgive me... its this new LG..... =X

okkayy....gonna stop nw....

2009-03-27T11:10:00.002+08:00

Im at the library with Naqiah right now. Naqiah is playing with her new LG phone :)

And i can see right thru her that she is so freaking happy.

p/s: satu row dngn ku maths ada hp baru. Nice! :)

Penyinar Meeting - Brunei AIDS Council

2009-03-22T21:50:00.005+08:00

Update for the week. Nothing much.

Photo session after the meeting. It was fun knowing them. HEHE. Cleo hehe I spy with my little eye something starts with A. HAHAHA. Apakan.

2nd Update: Japanese Pop Culture Week - BJFA

2009-03-15T14:53:00.006+08:00

Japanese Pop Culture Week
organized by
Brunei-Japan Friendship Association

More Updates: H.A.P.P.Y.

2009-03-15T14:21:00.005+08:00

This blog is seriously quiet. Haha. Anyways, I'm gonna use this blog to update on events happening in UBD and all around. I might change the skin of this blog soon if I have time. Every three months bah change.

Let all these pictures explains it all.

It was fun. I didn't expect it to be that fun. The HAPPY Programme made us joined Penyinar in BDAC. So can't wait for the next activities heheh.

Mid Sem Break

2009-03-07T16:50:00.003+08:00

THREE more days till the end of
MID SEM BREAK

How was you guys punya break? I know I didn't enjoy for sure. It was so boring. My time was always occupied with assignments. And I still haven't finish it. I have no life here. I was stuck at home. URGH. So frustrating.

Why can't break be two weeks? It wouldn't hurt. Sigh.

Stress eyh.

Cya ppl.

introducing.....my niece...ASHA!!

2009-03-03T17:32:00.003+08:00

Since it's very quiet in here I decided to write a bit about my one and almost only(because my sister is pregnant and will be having another baby in September =D) NIECE whose full name is Alina Ashadeeyah. We called her Asha...she's coming 3 in September (she will be exactly 3 years apart in age from her baby brother/sister, insyaallah).

She's a bit exasperating at the moment, and I, more than other people in the family, is the most easily annoyed by her. However, I'm really working on my attitude towards Asya; she's just a little baby, she couldn't have known any better.

Asha is a smart kid actually. I'm not bragging or anything, I just want to bring you readers into the world of little Asha. Once in a while she will throw smart comments that will make even ME laugh...=D Just last sunday my mom ask her:

Mama: "Asha nnti skolah ahh?"
Asha: *geleng2* "ABC......" (meaning she knows her ABC sudahh..so there's no need to go to school)

Brillianntt!! I like her answer..=D

This is her latest picture..She look cute in here!!

She looks stressed..agaggag..

Despite all the annoyed reactions that I gave her, I actually do love her to bits. She's going to have this circle of people around her to protect and love and cherish her for the rest of her life- that she can be sure of. Love u ASHAAA!! =)

H.A.P.P.Y.

2009-03-02T21:01:00.001+08:00

Book launching...our very own young writer =D

2009-03-02T01:04:00.006+08:00

On the 28th of February 2009, ENOY's book was launched. Yup, not many will know about her writing books...but there you go...she got a book published!! Its called "Harapan Sebuah Impian" written solely by ENOY.

This book was written when we were in form 2 kli...But now some of the storyline was a little bit different from the original. Kata Enoy it had to be changed to suit the situation. She actually submitted her story draft as an entry for a writing competition msa form 5..skli now...3 years later, all her hard work is in book form...and is on display and for sale at the BOOK FAIR 2009 at Stadium Tertutup.

The story is about a girl's love story..and how she faced the challenges along the way. The book, for me, is inspiring, even more because it was written with passion and by my bestfriend...=D

So, CONGRATULATION ENOYYYY....I'M SERIOUSLY PROUD OF YOUU....KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK..AND MAY MORE OF YOUR BOOKS GET PUBLISHED IN THE FUTURE!!
LOVE YOU BABEEEE...=D

updates

2009-02-27T22:46:00.004+08:00

Sunyi~! blog tane ani. Semua busy ehe. Kan kan?

Aku ja lah yg update ne. 3 weeks ago kami hangout to watch Pink Panther 2. And kami makan rah Wecan Restaurant. First time kami tau sal this restaurant sal ia macam bertapuk.

Pada petangnya kami ada firedrill taklimat. I managed to take a picture of this.

Cleo can you see what I see? HAHA. *winkwink* ;)

Pei Fen Oo.Oo. HAHA.

Goodnites.

Loves,
meens

Kedewasaan Bernegara

2009-02-23T19:02:00.002+08:00

Selamat Menyambut Hari Kebangsaan Jubli Perak

I watched the performance this morning. It was beautiful & creative. I was wondering if we were in it, we would be dark and having fun hehe. I know some "Puteri Lilin" will complain. LOL. But it's once in a while event.

late greeting

2009-02-15T10:51:00.004+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!

14th Feb 09 - Saddest day of my life. I never felt so lonely.

15th Feb 09 - It would have been 2. ='( imiss.

2009-02-10T07:50:00.002+08:00

Today, we will have 'muzakarah MIB', meaning, MIB tutorial. I'll have to come with some questions so that I can gain extra marks for class participation. Tapinya kannnn..sian jua tu urg menjawab soalan ku kalau ku tnya byk2....mcm..udah tah stress mmbuat presentation...sooo...aku tnya sa2 soalan ja lah.....agagga...

Today, we will have physics tutorial jua...and I haven't done any of the questions..erkk~~

Tomorrow, we will have physics lab test...and i haven't prepared myself...erkk~

Next monday is the due date for the seminar planning for Language course....anddddddd me and my partner alum buat apa2 at alllllllll.....erk~~~

Conclusion: aku makin pemalas udahhh...i desprately need to change!!! =(

BERGHH!!

2009-02-08T11:47:00.002+08:00

My sis will be back from Germany on the morrow....weheee.....
I wonder what she got for me. Can't waitt...

I'm in a major 'why-am-I-not-a-rich-kid' phase right now. I really, really, really want to have this one gadget..but judging from my bank account as of yesterday, I can't afford it. I will be able to afford it in 2-3-4 months though. Hopefully by then, I'll get to buy THE gadget or maybe an even better gadget..NYAHAHAHHA...I'm trying to be positive-minded here, learning to control my wants so that I can pay off my bills..=')

I draw a budget plan for myself 2 days ago. I can be rich if I really put my mind on it. Mark my words, in not more than 5 months,insyaallah, I will be equiped with a new gadget. I have done this before, I can do it again.

Living and paying for things myself is damn HARD, but it taught me somethings that other people took forever to learn. That's my gift to myself...=)

p.s. Nanad...where's the fun of going through the door??=p

2009-02-07T22:44:00.004+08:00

FYI,

Cleo is mine now =D

and happy belated Xmas Jas.

and hello Anna banana.

and N and L, there's this thing call the door, you both dont have to climb thru the window.

and i dont care, im bigger than this. Its okay :)

Rugby baybee

2009-02-05T20:27:00.002+08:00

Random. Me and Fen was really stressed out with life. That's why we did this. ;)

Terpaksa

2009-02-03T08:03:00.002+08:00

Forced by NJ.

Whoever gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/ her.

1. He is short for a guy's height
2. He can be extremely annoying.

3. He always have new phrases everytime he greets people online like "nyar"
4. Chat with him, inda abis tu and inda ia jawab apa yang ku tanya. In conclusion, he don't layan half-way.
5. He is in LOVE with ;)
6. He loves art and has passion for it I guess.

7. He tidak senang mengalah.
8. His parents are nice but not the part "Date with him and we'll pay your date."

9. He talks to himself randomly. Weird banar jua tu.

10. He will complained what I write here because 1. Some of it is malay 2. Some of it is bad things about him LOL.

The person who got tagged has to write 10 things about himself/herself.

1. I am hawt.
2. Well, number one is a lie. I'm so not.
3. Saya suka tidur pasal saya macam itu piggy cumanya kurang lemak pasal minum susu rendah lemak HAHAHA.
4. Obviously, I AM LAME. Hail to your Queen of Lame.
5. Pink and Purple mwahahhahaha me!
6. I LOVE FOOD.
7. I don't look like 19 because I am short for my age.
8. Heart is still reigned. ;)
9. I love my Patrick and Crocky.
10. I am a girl full of mysteries. Nobody knows the real me. It's all hidden and it is better that way.

At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. whoever
2. wanna
3. do
4. it
5. do
6. it
7. lah
8. I
9. don't
10. mind

-28/01/09-

2009-02-01T15:57:00.003+08:00

On the eve of 28 January, I wanted to post something here, greet Enoy a happy birthday, but the blogspot.com just won't work. So now, a very late birthday greeting through here for my beloved best friend, Enoyy, hope you enjoyed the midnight suprzises, the dinner and the presents.

A lot of things didn't go as planned during the making of operation-enoy's B'day, but I think it turned out to be a better celebration anyways so dunk the imperfections. Enoy honestly said that it was a confusing day for her, we fed her with a lot of lies so that we could get through with the plan and well, how else can we suprize her if we didn't, right?

A lot of pictures were taken the night of Enoy's birthday, the culprit behind this all was of course Fatin, whom we proclaimed the photographer of the night =D

Enoy's world was full of SpongeBob that night, and given how much Enoy loves SpongeBob, I hope she was happy on her birthday.

I would like to thank all those who were involved in the suprize plan. To the person who booked Excapade VIP room, Shapikah, thanks babe. To Nanad who was willing to come late to her resco meeting to celebrate enoy's day, I was glad you were there, without you it won't be as nice as it was. To Liyana who brought the cake to the scene, thanks a million. To Fatin, for her presence, for her amusing self, and her talent in photography, thank you, thank you, thank you! To the boys, Adid, Wafi and Azizi, thanks for joining that night, your precence are deeply appreciated. And finally, to Mimie who I dragged here and there in search of a present, who was by my side all along during the process of the planning and for being there when I needed her, thanks mimie..you're the best!!

Now, Esya n Emahhh, I wish you both were here. Really miss the times when we were all together, planning suprize birthday for one of us. =')

2009-01-30T01:08:00.004+08:00

I cant wait for march. HOLIDAYS!!! Tapi nya kan, assignments ku bnyk due date nya march.
alkshdlkasjhdalksdjhasjd.

Ohh happy belated birthday to enoy and farisa!!! xoxo

lawa oh! I have a hard time letting it go!! haha. Ukan aku punya, its nonoy punya. her birthday present. askdjhsdh. PURPLE ROSES! skhfjslfh. nada wah. :)

Goodnight. Esok puasa lagi.

-n-

Birthday Greetings

2009-01-29T19:04:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Izzyani Ramlee

Farisa Talif

Sorry akhir post disini. I hope this counts. =) Have a great life both of you. Takecares.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

2009-01-26T10:51:00.001+08:00

恭喜發財
HAPPY 牛 YEAR!

Down the memory lane..

2009-01-23T17:05:00.004+08:00

Yes, I know I'm supposed to do my assignments. I can't help but reminisce. Someone brought this up and suddenly it is circulating around in Facebook. Oh well. I really miss those memories. So much we shared together. Hmm.

On 18th January, I ordered a cake. And it was posted on the Taste on Tray blog. HAHA. Bangga.

Nyaman tau!

2009-01-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

Tagged by esya:

Whoever gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/her:
(esya sngaja wa..ya mau lyat urg ckp apa ah ya)
- kiutttt mcm cinaa
- putehhhhhhh(kulitnya)
- suka becali dan ktawa...simultaneously
- suka soya bean(smpi mamanya antar ke uk)
- suka soto
- nda suka cheese
- suka putik eraser(rubber) urg yg ampai2 msa kami high school dulu....
- suka belajar
- baik hati
- aku syg iya.....=D

the person who get tagged has to write 10 things about himself/herself:
(jgn nyasal)
- aku single
- aku syg lilo(kucing ku yg kiut, ya warna oren =D)
- nda pndai nyanyi
- nda pndai nari
- aku drive manual skli slalu mati2 kalau 1st gear(aaggagagaga)
- aku ktawa labang2
- aku pemalu(gwakagagagagaga)
- aku suka american idol...kalau bleh,aku mo lyat ari2...nepyah tunggu next week
- aku nda dpt jln mlm smpai aher2 sal mama ku nda suruh
- aku kapih awal ane..bila kuar elaun ah?

you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names:
- bah
- sapa
- gi
- kan
-ku
- tag
- ne
- ??
- soma suda
- kana tag...agaggaga...

chaaarrrrlieeee let's go to the candy mountainn~!

2009-01-20T23:03:00.005+08:00

HAHA. Yesh I have watched the Charlie video in FLS's Blog. CALI HAHA. I kept on bugging Sharon with that thing. Me and Cleo are like obsessed with it. NOT haha.

Updates:
1. Pei Fen's Laptop is busted. When I entered Sharon's room, I saw her hugging a book with the "I am so sad but I am still smiling" face. LOL.

2. Naqiah, few hours ago, her door room was opened and took a peek and saw her watching American Idol. I know Naqiah you wanna be in it too. I support you. I wanna be your number one fan. I'm just next door stalking you. HAHA.

3. Cleo, I see her EVERYDAY. So what you want me to say about her. Macam na sudi liat ia wah. Anyways Hilmi thought we were sisters. Oh yeah. We wore purple today AGAIN.

4. Sharon, ikut2an pakai purple. Spoil eh HAHA. She addicted to Facebook especially Pet Society and Mafia Wars. THANKS TO ME. HAHAA.

5. The rest, inda tah ku terjumpa batang idung durang haha. Sal I think because they lived next block. Oh well.

Bah ber gambar tani eee. =)

The practical which I'm supposed to hand in soon. The small thingies are crystals. I know they look disgusting. Oh well. I envy Amal's and Cleo's Crystal. Theirs are prettier.

Urg iski. *na maluuuu*

Farni eksen na liat camera.

Cool tah konon.

Emosi si kawan beceta haha.

Banyak gi gambar. Nanti tah ku upload. Sal PC ku pun kan parai usulnya LOL.

Goodnites everyone.

Worries

2009-01-18T23:49:00.002+08:00

Hey people. Quiet ah this blog. Semester two just started and now we're coming to week 2. Overall, it was chaotic and tiring. Sigh. I'm still awake yeah appearing off9 apparently. But hoping I'll sleep sooner or later because I can't stop thinking about something. There are some things that are left unspoken.

I was looking for this Malay song. I've been searching it. Wondering who is the singer and I found it!!

Cintaku Untukmu - Zahid (I'm not sure if he's the one who sang it).

Cintaku Untukmu - Zahid

Imeem baby haha.

Bah goodnites.

imiss...

aku tekajut n teharu...

2009-01-17T22:06:00.002+08:00

tadi aku balik umah kann..skli aku msuk blik ku..skli aku lyat bilik ku lapanggg....bersih...n mcm baru..

msa aku tinggalkn msa tu before balik ke ostel,i remember there was an island of shoes arah dakat jamban ku...den ada island of junk dpan almari ku...n now its gone!!!

skli my sis ckp, "mama tu bersihkan"

skli aku tekajut..."napa mama bersihkan bilik ku?"aku tnya.

my sis jawab,"psalnya mama bersihkan jambanmu,skli air tekeluar smpi kana kapet mu, skli mama jamur la kapet mu...skli tarus lah ya bersihkan junks mu"

skli aku lari2 anak ke jamban ku.....skliiii.....gleaming clean wa jmban ku....

aku terharu.....i'm not a little girl anymore..ptutnya i clean my own room..tapi aku malas...n den my mama bersihkan utk aku...i was deeply touched and wordlessly greatful...

tanx mama....len kli aku bersihkan sendiri...evrytime b4 aku balik ostel, i'll clean my room first..promise!!

"She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free
Catching me in places that I knew I should'nt be
Every other day I crossed the line I didn't mean to be so bad
I never thought you would become the friend I never had
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love
Mama I love you.Mama I care
Mama I love you . Mama my friend. You're my friend
I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you said and did was right for me
I had a lot of to think about,about the way I usedto be
Never had a sense of my responsibility
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love
Mama, I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama ,my friend. You're my friend "

well me n my mama are not exactly close friends.....tapi.......i do love her...n i do care for her...tanx mama!!!! =')

Finally found the white light =)

2009-01-15T12:29:00.003+08:00

I've been keeping quiet from this blog for a long time now....

It's simply because I have nothing interesting to say. Nothing much had happen in my life so far in 2009 (result, getting back to hostel, back to uni and seeing PEOPLE again, and batmans of course!! =D). I hope my life will get more interesting than this soon while me still sticking to my initial plan of " 70% work and 30% play". Well, the truth is, it's easy to get bored with life. I'm bored! I want fun. Fun is nice. Fun makes me happy!

However, in the midst of timetable clashes and chaos of uni life(which is not that chaotic yet) I thought of one resolution that I will try to hang on like I'd never before: I will make my 4 years in uni worth my time and money, worth my sweat and/or saliva(gwwahagagaga), worth my mother's tears and smiles and worth leaving my baby-sweet-little-orange-cat Lilo behind. I told myself, " Lets do this! Lets go and make family proud and prove some people wrong!"

With this resolution I hope I won't get an E anymore...Even if I do, it must be because the teacher is such a cheapskate in giving marks or because I've tried my HARDESTTT possible and still find the exam paper extremely difficult.

So, second semester, here I come!! I'm going to face you with renewed determination and intention. Hopefully 2nd semester will bring more friends, more fun, less work(gwahaggaga), and most important, MORE SUCCESS.

Whatever happens next is not for us to know but for us to work hard for...And what harm can it do if I inject just a little dose of fun while doing all this? =)

bowling

2009-01-13T22:45:00.003+08:00

I'm bored people. Baru jua aku clean my room hehe. And now printing MA1102 notes. Batah ah. Ngntok ku menunggu.

Today is a very nasty day. Stoopeed timetable.

I can hear Pei Fen's laughter and horrifying loud nasty voice.

Nee me doing Fen's poses. It's so her. I wanna humiliate her for once. HAHA.

Pose #1

Pose #2

So what do you think? Am I good at imitating Pei Fen? HAHA.

Pei Fen's favorite quote today which pissed me and Cleo off is "I see, I see, I see." The tone is so annoying till we told her to stop ahaha. I know I'm mean.

Mana Nanad? Cleo?

Sharon GOODLUCK FOR LOGIC AND THINKING I TOMORROW! Score well. =)

*off to play online bowling*

mengusut

2009-01-13T00:53:00.001+08:00

Yes aku alum tidor. Aku inda dapat tidur. ='( Kaki ku sakit.

*sigh*

Goodnites all. See you all in MIB class.

2009-01-12T11:04:00.001+08:00

Home sweet home..NOT!!!

Cute ah water dispenser ku =D

happy feet ;)

2009-01-10T18:27:00.003+08:00

Moody wasn't it this morning? Raining heavily. I woke up at 3am in the morning because of it. It sounded like a pail of bucket splashes water over my area. I had plans for today. Me, Cleo and Sharon that is. Around 9am, Cleo and I went to Kaybee. I have something to urus. It was drizzling by then.

Then, we picked up Sharon in Seria. It started raining heavily. Sharon bawa jinx haha. I almost skidded. Haih sakit jua jantung tu.

We went to UBD to grab Laboratory Manual because our lecturer wants us to read before we enter the class. First day sudah tia ada practical. Sigh. Sharon jumpa AR for her worries over State and Society when actually her Logic is the one which needs supplementary. We went to check our results in Chancellor Hall. I was happy to see my overall is C. HEHE. I wanna try harder eyh.

Oh by the way the UBD Results in the website is working well =)

Pictures of craziness ;)

Bah abis dah.

Owh btw lets welcome our fellow friends yang hijacked our chatbox HAHA.
yes I know we are boring.

i am sad ='(

2009-01-09T21:21:00.003+08:00

I don't wanna be like what this song is tryna say. If you get me.

"Broken hearted girl" originally sang by Beyonce but cover by Rin on the Rox

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

But I am too late... =(

with nothing but your t-shirt on

2009-01-09T12:28:00.002+08:00

HEY ALL.

CONGRATULATIONS
on your results.

Yang sitting for supplementary examinations. GOODLUCK. Especially Fen on French. Kami nda kacau you. Jangan online2 sja. Blajar!!

My grades are satisfying. Spoiler wah Discrete Maths. Oh well. Aku major ja Maths. Haih. Anyways, there is Semester TWO to look for. Sigh I'm tired. I don't feel like mau balik. I want my HOME! ='(

I tried checking UBD website for our result. Ngeh error! I wonder what did other ppl do sampai rusak ah. HAHA. Apakan na cali.

Bah OUTS.

I realised I have the most post in here. LOL.

drumrolls

2009-01-09T11:01:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY
TO
MISS KHAIZRIAH MASZELAN

LOVES
WE-AREBORED GANGS
xo xo

erk~!! exam result status...

2009-01-08T20:49:00.002+08:00

no fail. no supp. no A's, C's and D's... Just B's and E's :(

semester two timetable is out

2009-01-06T13:27:00.002+08:00

In case nobody notice, the semester timetable is out.

CLICK HERE

My TT is a mess! SO MANY CLASHES! and no more day break. That means I'm gonna stay in bandar always. Saddening. The environment only. Nasib my kawan ada.

I'm gonna change the way I study. I cannot take last minute study. Sakit kepala uleh nya.

What ECA should I join? I wanna join squash tpi aku inda pndai main. Bowling aku pun mau jua haha.

Aku rindu kamu smua. Sunyi wah.

dedication to all my friendss

2009-01-02T11:50:00.003+08:00

Hey people. I have a song dedication to all my friends. I hope you'll love it. Hugs.

If you need a friend, I'll be there for you. Love you all. Wherever you are. *HUGS*

drained out

2009-01-01T11:34:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

Aih Cleo ke Empire na bawa urang hahah. I'm home. Came home at 1am last night. Three houses I went from evening. Uncle George Gumma, Uncle Iscramoun and Joshua. Siuk!! Lotsa pictures though hehe. Tonight I have something up. Last minute plan BBQ rah my cousins. Baking ne me make my cousins fat haha.

How'd you guys spend your New Year?

Pictures.

CUTE! I can just use it as a MOP HAHA. GAMUK IA JALAN.

Buccaneer Catering =) NYAMAN!

Vanity Session with Sharon

And the rest

Aku karaoke haha. Lagu TATTOO..

Fireworkssss~!!! LAWA-ness.

Last night karaoke. Josh owns this sort of Singstar but it's not. It's Philippine product. I sang "Stay The Same" and I got 100 percent! HAHA how cool is that? FAKE wah that thing. Got one song Edward sang. ZERO ia dapat. HAHA.

Now, I'm addicted to singing. Tonight lagi hehe.

Happy new year 2009!!

2009-01-01T04:19:00.001+08:00

Hey y'all.. Happy new year 2009!! Lmbt jua ku nie.. Hehe.. Anywayss.. Most of u all knw im staying in empire.. Hehehe.. Siuk laa.. Rmai urggg.. I saw dk mimi (kurus).. I saw adekkk.. Hehe.. We were shouting 2 other ppl at the other building.. Ntaheh.. "High" dah kmi.. Td im havng my bubble bath while chattng with nanad.. We imagned we mandi tgether2.. Hahaha.. Xrated taus pkiran kmi.. Aiyoh.. Haha.. Tak bgus.. Then td Kul 3 lbh,me n frens r bored so kmi jln kaki k tpt jakuzzi.. Brendam dsna.. Sekaliiinyaaa.. Dtg tia sekuritinya yg ensemmm2 n muda2 (tekrg).. Kna halau kmi.. Malu nyee.. Ne mlepak rah balcony bilik kmi.. Not gona sleeppp.. Wheee :).. P.s. I kept meeting tis hot guy *drools*.. Haha.. GatalsSs- siuk bchattng sma shar0n the pinguu.. Buat ia ktawa mcm urg gila as what her m0m said.. Btw,2 jas n the rest yg ku lum wish hepy new year.. Hepy new year 2009!! Hohohoho.. Eh make sense kah what m typing? Hahaha..

Regret =s

2009-01-01T01:26:00.008+08:00

Uhuu..2008 is now almost 2 hour behind us now....sooo..

There is no need for me to shout out my new year resolutions. (nada actually...agagga...ya, I'm not a motivational person..biar tia...who cares)

Buttt...there is one regret from 08 that i shall bring to 09...in fact I will bring this regret forever.

That these people are not here with me today or I'M NOT THERE WITH THEM.

Miss you both so much....

Living up to the memory of the both of you and the good times we had together..hope to have more soon..

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new year!!

2009-01-01T01:26:00.004+08:00

especially for Pei Fen n others..hehe

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!!
WISH THIS YEAR BE THE BEST YEAR THAN THE PREVIOUS YEAR!!!!!!!

love.8

new year

2008-12-31T21:28:00.004+08:00

LOLOOOOOOOO~

Only few hours left till new year. Im so excited for the 2nd sem to start. I just dont know why. So that i can see my batman again and run around the campus and run around the hostel.

So summary of my 2008:-
Broken hearted, make new friends, not-so-fab A level reSLUT, hanging out with old friends, sleepovers, swimming, si manis 17, buttermilk chicken bsrc (OMG),baking birthday cakes, shopping for the love ones, crying, UBD, everybody left UK, eating out, face masks, pigging riding, kena saman by polis, soccer mom of the year, bowling,rugby,rockband, singstar, purple rose, OBBD, useless revision week, culture shock, spa, giant, skip lectures, sleeping during lectures, playing during lectures, talking during lectures (steady kami atu ah, duduk depan sekali, urg belakang plang kenapatan), mashimaro, contract sama nadiah and syaz,empire,kayaking,movies, SEAWEED, draw a chicken during lectures, allowance. My "suprise" birthday, common room f5, dirty sexy money, minta food from sharon.

So for 2009:-
live life to the fullest and move on with my life and appreaciate more.I could careless about love right now.

Lifes a bitch.

So i decided to stay under the blanket for new year while my whole family is going out for dinner. So here i am, all alone at home.

I might just cry right now, under my blanket.Bye bye 2008. You will be loved and missed.

-n-

my new phone^^

2008-12-31T16:36:00.002+08:00

heheheh.... this is my new phone!!!!! you ppl can contact me using my old number already....hm.... i think that is abt it..^^

ok cya people!!! miss you all!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!!!!!

KISS KISS!!!!

Jasmin's 2008 review

2008-12-31T12:13:00.002+08:00

Knowing that today is the last day of 2008. I feel extremely sad. and in tears because whatever happened this year was really a painful journey for me. Till now, I'm still not strong enough to move on. To tell you the truth, I don't wanna leave this all behind. I don't want to move forward. But I have to ='(

Let's start chronologically.

January
Early week of January, I was in Kota Kinabalu. I stayed there from December for two weeks. With Bob & Theo. Part of me was having a regret because I didn't spend my new year in Brunei. That caused an issue. Sigh. This month was GCE A Levels was released. I remember I was with Haqim, Yuli and Nigel that time because I came back from ITB Career Day. Then, Haqim received a message from his sister about results. I got ADDb. My reaction was .... I don't know whether to be happy or sad. I was indifferent. A part of me was envious because I didn't do well. I remember how my dad responded to my results. He was like "That's it. Why 'D'? Why not 'B'?" Sigh.

February
Busy with unversity applications. Scholarships, UBD and ITB. Damn tiring. UCAS this and that. V-day was there and anniversary. Just because of these applications. I couldn't spend it well. What's the memory? nothing.

March, April
Nothing. Just growing anggur.

May
Interviews. Sheesh. I f*cked up.

June
Results of Scholarship. Obviously didnt get it. I was depress this whole month.

July
Hangout with my friends. UBD orientation. Wth just take it. I get to know the sad news this months and only 2&1/2 months left.

August
SAS Anniv (I didn't attend) -> orientation. A month and half left. Darn I could stop crying that time. Trying my best to spend as much as I could but it's impossible. With departure in and out. Birthdays. Both of our birthday. I had fun. It was the best in this year so far.

September
His departure. The worst month of my life. I completely lost myself till now. My friends left for further studies. I miss them all. I really miss you guys. Life isn't the same ='(

October, November
BUSY BUSY BUSY. Trying to torture myself so I would not think. It still hurts. Truth slowly emerged. Raya.

December
UBD Exams. Christmas. Here I am. Still alive. Still lost.

***********************

Obviously I'm lazy to think. It hurts to think back. Overall, my year really really not welcoming. I'm sorry guys I'm acting like this. I wanna stop pretending but I couldn't help it. I wanna open up but I couldn't do that anymore.

Anyways, I wanna thank all of you for being there for me. I wanna apologise for all the wrong and hurt I've caused. Especially to someone. It is my fault. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being rude, selfish, self-centred, mean and all. Sorry guys.

Enjoy it.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!
Goodluck for whatever may come you ways.

Love from Jasmin

adam?

2008-12-30T22:21:00.002+08:00

Aku ada video CALI banar! Psal Adam & Eve. ENJOY.

Please don't feel offended by it because it is a commercial.

Two hours left

2008-12-30T21:55:00.002+08:00

Time pass so fast. Almost a day to go. Tomorrow I'm gonna write a touching essays on my 2008 and it will surely win your heart... NOT! haha. I'm crazy. SORRY. Ain't high on sugar either. Sigh. Maybe it's the way I express my sadness.

O h w e l l . . .

B y e t h e n !

sheesh

2008-12-29T20:31:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Bandar. Hangout ma my cousins and brothers. I'm HAPPY because I FINALLY GOT WHAT I WISH FOR. I'll keep you guessing HAHA. Anyways, we went to watch movie. I DEFINITELY RECOMMEND YOU GUYS TO WATCH IT.

DAMN FUNNEH!! HAHA. I JUST LOVE ADAM SANDLER. MY NUMBER ONE BEST COMEDIAN ACTOR. I so wanna spoil the stories. But I takut you all marah. Lawa cetanya. I almost died of LAUGHING haha. I wanna watch again.

So far, I think this Movie is a cure. HEHE.

Omy I'm tired. Sigh. Bob is coming my place at 9pm. LOL. Urgh results. We are still waiting. I'm all calm right now. I don't wanna go paranoid. I ain't confident either.

I better go freshen up!

out of boredom

2008-12-28T21:22:00.003+08:00

New year is soon. I'm not excited but haih depressed. I'm really bored right now. Everyday I'm bored. Everytime I'm bored I sleep and sleep and couldn't sleep at night. Tried to think ways to unbored myself but it ain't working. Right now, I'm not sleepy and it's 9PM! Urgh. I really am torturing myself.

Sorry about that guys.

Anyways this picture I dedicate to Aisyah.

Inda you rindu adi mu? hehe.

Haha. Aku jumpa ia rah rumah Mr. Koh. One family mu sana. Ada ku ceta ma mama mu. Aku britau yang Aisyah very very naughty sana HAHA. Nada wah. Ia kata you keboringan. =) Sian. BTW ulah adi mu sama macam ulah mu. Cali eh. Aku plg rindu haha.

To all My muslim friends, Selamat Menyambut Awal Tahun Hijrah 1430. =)

I can't hangout at Lil' Aunt's house I gotta balik kampung. Tanam padi. LOL.

The sub list for FBEPS students

2008-12-28T11:44:00.005+08:00

well....this is the "list" for the FBEPS people...if they have not seen it so this is it...
ok thats it cya.....

swim swim~~~~~

2008-12-28T11:10:00.003+08:00

ok ppl i was thinking of going swimming on Monday which is tomorrow.... at 5pm at mumong.... anyone wants to come also?? the ones confirm is me and alicia (wan).... so so anyone wants to follow also??? it will be fun if a lot of ppl are coming!!!!

just write your reply at the chat box.

ok cya than!!!!

streten...

2008-12-28T10:16:00.002+08:00

Oho!!
It has been awhile since aku lish lish(baby fruit ku ckp tulis "lish lish") in here...

First of all, my deepest regret and apology to JASMIN sal nda dtg umah mu msa Christmas.

Second of all, I want to wish you all had a very merry Christmas, Selamat menyambut Awal Hijrah which is tomorrow(aku tau byk urg nda tau ne), and a very happy new year which is 3 days from today...

And lastly...I finally got my hair cut and streten..so...ehe...I feel light-headed now...I just realize that my hair cut is almost similiar to Jasmin's hair now...so sorry Jasmin..its not intentional..

Aku kan post picture of me and my hair...agagga...buttt....aku alum mengasah kebolehan ku dalam ilmu VAINESS..so...aku maluuu...eeggege...

And that is all.....See you people when I see you...bbaii...

Christmas Review

2008-12-27T12:29:00.003+08:00

Pictures taken on 25th December. I'll only post a few.

It was raining that day. Gloomy.

Yummy~!

Picture taken with the KB Athletes.

Me hugging a big Snowglobe hehe. I was high on sugaa.

Cousins. Laydees only.

The rest of the pictures can be viewed in Facebook. Here are the Links. Enjoy =)

Christmas 2008 Part I
Christmas 2008 Part II
Christmas 2008 Part III

**Those who didn't manage to come for Christmas. It's alright. Some other time can jua kan? Hehe. Holla me if you're coming. Hangout la once in a while.

tagged boredom

2008-12-27T11:53:00.003+08:00

1. Do you think you're hot?
- Well, "Thank you I know I'm hawt~" HAHA. Everyone I know will give a puked face ahha.

2. Upload a favourite picture of you.

3. Why do you like that picture?
- It shows the real me inside. And also me being totally vain. ;)

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
- Uh inda ingat but I'm have one soon because gamuks gonna lanja me. Ia menang voucher kali ah dri radio haha.

5. The last song you listened to?
- Katy Perry - Hot & Cold (Dari blog esyah & emah)

6. What are you doing now besides this?
- editing my picture =)

7. What name do you prefer besides yours?
- by~! idk.

8. Tag 5 people.
(1) Theo
(2) Bob
(3) Syaz
(4) ...
(5) Sesiapa yang mau buat ne.

9. Who is number 1?
- Best friend

10. Number 2 is having a relationship with who?
- ngehh.. XT hee

11. Say something about number 5.
- He/SHe is COOL! LOL

12. How about number 4?
- i wuv. ;)

13. Who is number 3?
- Owner of LJ Salvation haha.

mati ne

2008-12-26T09:48:00.003+08:00

Hey urg. I'm awake. Ngalih ku because of yesterday. BANYAK urg dtg. Right now aku mengusut. Sal my mom kacau my sleep and also I received a text message at 3am in the morning. Sigh my theory was a mistake.

Anyways, yesterday was crazy. Banyak dtg. Mostly my relatives far and near. Then, some of my friends came and also the KB Athletes. Kawan adi la tu.

Makanan yesterday wah langis kali eh. Ngam2 wah. My last visitor was Ekah and Bazilah who came arnd 10pm++ till 11pm++. I did xmas-ing at my uncle's place. Banyak urg kami bawa serbu rumah nya. haha. Pa jua jalan kaki in the rain. LOL.

I tried entertaining myself. By eating alot and locking up myself in my room. Now aku kepisan. Macam hangover rasanya tpi aku inda minum & i don't want to because i have health problems. Bah I'll post pictures nanti. Right now I'm lazy.

I have houses to go today. Tata.

sigh

2008-12-24T21:26:00.002+08:00

hey all. i'm sick. 3 more hours to christmas. i'm gonna miss the vigil tonight and attend tomorrow. i'm not enthusiastic about it but sad.

My Christmas Wishlist:
1. Apple IPod or ITouch
2. Travel
3. Study abroad
4. Graduate with honor
5. Healthy life
6. *****

I'm worried about Nini Pan (Nini boy). He's been admitting into hospital alot of times these past two months. His one and only kidney shrinked and the same size as his kidney stone. He's coming 100 years old next year. He said he'll go away in a week. He's forgetful and talking nonsense. He even made a funny remark when we asked why is he daydreaming. But he still remember me as Dang Tampoi haha. I'm feeling anxious.

going off. really not feeling well. i'm in real pain.
bah.

MERRY X'MAS ALL.

=)

cya.

aku sedih

2008-12-23T23:35:00.005+08:00

I barely can sleep. Sedih ku. Stress jua memikir sal results ah. I want Starbucks. Or bake cake or umm jump into a pool or run as painful as I can. I'm too much haha.

Banyak urg ku message tadi sal xmas. I wonder how many will come. Sal last year, only 2-4 ppl came out of 20++. But it's okay I know you guys are busy plus it's holiday. Time to fly outside.

Waduh sakitnye perut saya. Dari tdi sakiitt~

OUT.

my hands smell like crab

2008-12-23T17:32:00.002+08:00

sh*te! I just knew Supplementary List was OUT! Eventhough I'm not in the list (I think). The chances of FAILING is fudgingg 50-50. Urgh. Kenapa durang ane batah memproses kan results atu kan? Menyakitkan ati saja.

Nasib Nanad told me about the Supplementary thing. She taught I knew. I never knew it.

I don't wanna fudging sit in UNI for 5 focking years!

darn it.

I'm freaking pissed.

moodless.

heys

2008-12-23T08:10:00.002+08:00

Morning. Ergh the results thingy affecting me too. Bila keluar kan? I want it ASAP! Mudah2an jua aku pass. E pun boleh lah. I don't wanna sit for the freaking supplementary exams. It is enough that exams killed my brain already. Sigh. How dumb can I be.

Anyways, sorry I brought it up. Sal Cleo mentioned it. Good way to express yourself here. No worries.

CHRISTMAS IN 2 DAYS!

Kamu jangan lupa datang rumah okay? I'll be celebrating on 25th December at my home from Afternoon onwards. If you're lost or want my home address, call me. I'm just a click away hahah. Lame. PUHLEAASSEE COME! I baked some of the kuih. True enough =).

Aku ngalih ah from baking saja. Now I gotta clear up my house before my mommy bomb me.

I don't know what to expect for christmas. what more new year. =(

Okay snap the sadness. What am I gonna do now?

stress mode

2008-12-23T00:53:00.009+08:00

i COULDN'T SLEEP AT ALL.. gawdddd.. im TOO worried about the R _ _ _ _ _ _ . udahtah dmam... stress g mmikir.. na branti2 anewah ku batuk.. terukk eyyy~~ cuatah drg post kan the supp-list with the R-list tarus.. na pyah ku FRUST mmikir.. wlupun im not on the list.. p i dunno whether i FAIL or i PASS?? mudahan PASS lah.. amin2~.. i know i did badly on some of the papers.. LC ku na abis bah my article review.. 15marks, man!! WADDAHELL!! Many questions to do yet so little time!! haizz.. so td kira ku kan buang frust rah liyana since ia on9.. skalinyaaaa she dunno that kuar dah the supp list.. nervous tia iya leh ku.. haizzzzz.. soryyy, geng.. manalah i tau.. haizzz.. tmpar aku eyh kamo.. supaya aku relek..

p.s. sorry if u guys stress leh aku pasal ane.. p i NEED to express my frustration to sumONE.. n everyONEs asleep.. so aku krjakan blog ne.. since jrg ku post.. ehe..

buang stress ne

2008-12-21T21:06:00.002+08:00

Just to waste time and buang stress.
aisyah tagged.

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
- always been home sigh.

2. Who are you in love with?
- .....

3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
- please don't think i'm crazy. yes i've eaten crayon when i was a toddler.

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
- Veet. ;)

5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
- Last Tuesday.

6. Are you wearing socks right now?
- No. Tahan ja sajuk.

7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?
- Ada plang tapi bukan duit.

8. When was the last time u drove out of town?
- Ahh banyak kali dah.

9. Have you been to the movies in the last five days?
- Yep. Twilight.

10. Are you hot?
- I'm freezing. It's snowing (raining) in here.

11. What was the last time you had to drink?
- Water.

12. What are you wearing right now?
- Baju rumah and shorts.

13. Do you wash a car or let the car wash do it?
- I wash the car but lazy to do so.

14. Last food that you ate?
- Nasi Katok.

15. Where were you last week at this time?
- Umm eventually at home also. My life sucks k?

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
- No. Malas.

17. When is the last time you ran?
- Friday for training.

18. What was the sporting events you watched?
- ngeh? lazy to watch.

19. What is your favourite animal?
- ntah eh. malas ku pilih2. aku suka semua.

20. Your dream vacation?
- AROUND THE WORLD!!

21. Last person's house you were in?
- my gawd I don't remember. I was always home.

22. Worse injury you've ever had?
- brokenhearted. (english version of aisyah's hehe)

23. Have you been in love?
- yes. still.

24. Do u miss anyone right now??
- Yeah I do sigh. =(

25. Last play you saw?
- no play here.

26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
- wth?

27. What are your plans for tonight?
- sleep and hoping not to wake up the next morning.

28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?
- mana lah ku tau. MySpace ku berhabuk ah.

29. Next trip you are going to take?
- hopefully KK but I don't think so. Maybe Bandar.

30. Ever go to camp?
- Yups. Science Camp. Worse experience of my life. I was meant to be a princess LOL.

31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
- apa kan tu? sorry my english not good.

32. What do you want to know about the future?
- how will my life be?

33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
- what for? i seldom where those because i don't stink.

34. Are you due something this year for a doctor's visit?
- yeah on 24th but cancelled because of my dad's retirement.

35. Where is your best friends?
- home i think. chatting with her boy.

36. How is your best friends?
- she's fine.

37. Do you have a tan?
- no i'm tanned enough.

38. What are you listening to right now?
- some malay song. I don't know what is the name of the song.

39. Do you collect anything?
- banyak ku collect. apa kamu mau?

40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
- uh does perez hilton count? what about gossip girl? haha.

41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
- tu tut tu~! haha cleo knows this. I think 3 months ago.

42. Have you ever drank your soda with a straw?
- Yeah. Cleanliness I really concern.

43. What does your last text message say?
- pasal bali chocolate paste brand nya kings. LOL. Yeah I'm baking gi. Lau mau rasa datang rumah ku.

44. Do you like hot sauce?
- I think so. When I need to torture myself.

45. Last time you take a shower?
- baru tadi. two hours ago.

46. Do you need to do laundry?
- not now. ha.

47. What is your heritage?
- heritage? what do I need to inherit? Land?

48. Are you someone's best friend???
- Apakan? Napa question nya cam twisted.

49. Are you rich??
- Hopefully.

50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?
- haha tidor sal bru siap nangis. lol.

51. Tag 5 people:
Aku malas tag ah. Kalau kamu free buat lah.

cupcakes

2008-12-20T18:38:00.005+08:00

four hours ago i spent my time baking cupcakes. it's sorta my first time i think. damn i'm tired by it. usually i have my baking partner who is more expert in these stuff. ~~apparently the chef is far away~~

as usual picture time. =)

My preparations with the cupcakes. Well, it's not pretty. I think does not taste great either. I only tried one cupcakes. Because I never bake cake for myself but others haha. My mom was like nyaman eh anak ku buat. Ngampu tu haha.

So meet the chef. Yes I am tired. Haha.

******

I baked it on my own. The way I handle stress is baking. Or put myself in pain. I am now in pain. I can barely walk. I tortured myself by running full speed. My team lost because of me. I really need to get my own spike shoes. Now my ribs hurt. My feet, limbs & thigh aching like crazy. I know I'm crazy thank you.

I'm talking crap LOL. Now I'm thinking what to do next.

I just have that need to get rid whatever I'm gonna think. SIGH.

starbucks trip

2008-12-20T11:39:00.004+08:00

thanks all of you for your support. big *hugs* to all of you. thank you so much.

STARBUCKS! I went last Thursday with my family. I didn't really get any clothes for myself though but I bought starbucks heheh. I LOVE!

the place is in Bintang Plaza where Parkson is. the entrance is outside not inside the building. i was tricked by that ahaha.

my finished vanilla latter. yum yum. it was not enough ya know. so i bought this.

CHOCOLATE CREAM FRAPPUCINOS. YUP THERE ARE FOUR OF IT HAHA. I only drank one okay? haha. I missed it. anybody can get me one?

something to cheer you up!

2008-12-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

Life is a major roller-coaster...

2008-12-19T12:33:00.006+08:00

Tanx SHAPIQAH and NANAD...for last night...

I LOVE KMO SMUAAAA...

To those who are hurting a.k.a Jasmin(gagagga), I won't tell you to stop feeling what you're feeling because I know it's hard. I won't tell you I understood what you're going through cuz I don't. I would love to give you a hug but I can't cuz I'm here and you're there. I seriously don't know how I can help but I hope that somehow knowing that I am listening to you and that I pray for your self-peace will contribute a little bit of strength for you to live each day with a smile and some hope that you will be able to move on completely one day.

I hope I make sense..... =D

Everyone who's reading this, please take a moment to just remember any good times you ever had, and SMILE!!! Give yourself a chance to be free with a smile =)

unbearable pain

2008-12-19T11:13:00.004+08:00

somehow i have to let it out from my chest. i'm tired of pretending to be happy. before i wanna apologise whoever i bullied with my harsh words that might have crushed you guys. i did that because i was full of rage. i wasn't furious with you all. don't mistaken that.

i was furious with myself. as you all know, i'm really going through a very hard phase in my life. trying to move on but i just couldn't. i know i haven't told any of you what is wrong with me. as fen said that i always keep my problems to myself. i am really sorry about that.

i know some of you think i've moved on. i haven't. aren't i a hypocrite.

i am hurt. still hurt. his memories still linger within me. i miss him so much. he can't see that he's the only one who can make me happy. he thinks he is the problem with me being like this. argh. where was he when i needed him so much. he left me all alone with all the empty promises. i hate him for that. for oppositely, i still love him so much. ='(

why? why did you did this to me?

i need a hug. ='(

Hanging out after watching Twilight~~~

2008-12-18T23:20:00.008+08:00

Well i went to watch Twilight on Monday wit Cleo, Mimi, Mel-Mel, Dada they all and this is after the RESCO thing lah...hm...i was kinda disappointed about the movie maybe because of the actors or the amount of stuff that they left out from the book (but oh well)...anyway we were watching the movie and during the movie i was like giving out big big reactions and kacaued Cleo because she is just sitting beside me(hm... the reason why i give out such reactions is because they zoom in on their faces so much that i find it funny and coz of the corny lines... maybe i just like it when it is written in the book and not spoken out.. it felt very different when it was said out... i just cant stop laughing..wahahahaahah..)....hehehehhehe(sorry Cleo)... well like that lah.. so after we finish Haris (my sis sis) have to go coz he have an appointment wit someone ( you know wat i mean lah(eyebrow going up and down)..hehehe...) and so he left us and he still take the opportunity to bully me again which is like so sad...-_-".. ok done wit that, we went to... um.... something box (i forgot what is the name..hehehe..) and i start taking pic lah..hehehe..

~Mimi, Me, Cleo & Dada~
~Mel and Mimi~

I like this pic alot~~~ Me, Cleo and Dada....

well.... you can see that we r enjoying that day and that is it lah....hehehehehehehe.....ok cya ppl...

P.S: I know you ppl miss me (dont live in denial) :p

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me and bitterness

2008-12-18T23:11:00.002+08:00

My life is a box..
Sometimes its empty,sometimes its full..
Sometimes I'm discarded because I'm of no use anymore...
Sometimes people use me as a present...
Sometimes I give house to the homeless...
Sometimes.....

Urghhh!!! I'm not good at this... this is suppose to be beautiful n sad n brilliant...n something that can make people stop and think. Somehow I wanted to touch people today...to make people realize that as strong as one person can be, there are some part in that person self that feel like rubbish and that person would only need someone to just say "Ok, feel like rubbish, but I'm staying with you anyways" instead of "Don't feel like rubbish cuz you're not"

What I feel is what I FEEL, right? Am I not allowed to even be free with my own emotion?? As long as I do not get carried away with this emotion, I think it should be okay for ME to be in the MOOD.

Why am I even talking about this? Oh, maybe because someone is giving me a very hard time here in this box I'm living in, AND whenever I wanted to go out of this box this someone would accuse me of doing things that I will never do to myself. erghh!!!

CAN'T YOU HAVE A LITTLE FAITH IN ME?? I WILL NOT DISGRACE YOU, YOU KNOW!I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO DO THAT....

yum yum :P

2008-12-18T12:47:00.004+08:00

At
Seria enjoying the view... hehe... while eating...

it was really good...

after that, i went to eat this....

of cos one is mine and the other is Cleo one lah..... ehehehe... well i have nothing to post up and jas and pei fen already complain so i just post this up to make ppl drool....wahahahahahahahhahahahahah..... ok cya....

P.S for jaz and pei fen.. nah i already wrote something ah...so dont bomb me next time...wahahaha...:P

beware of me

2008-12-17T23:03:00.002+08:00

Hi all. TWO weeks left till 2009. Are you all excited? I know I'm not. Sigh. 2008 is the saddest year ever. But I sort of manage to survive. That's I'm here writing the blog. There's so much to do. I'm gonna start with myself. I have to fix myself first.

I gotta stop with EMO post.

I met up with Sharon, Pei Fen and my cousin. We planned to SWIM. Bad news eyh Pool is closed. I end up jogging in jeans with Pei Fen nagging like crazzayy~. LOL.

Next time la.

I'm off to Miri tomorrow. First intention is STARBUCKS. WAHAHAHAHA.
Then, clothes and shoes and bags. Too much. I'm sure I won't buy any of them.
Usually, I go down Miri. I will get back with SOUR RIBBONS. Not this, I have no one to share with. =( So I'll just treat myself with COFFEE which I desperately need to get my stress of.

Aww Fen's Lil' Monstaa miss me. HAHA. Fen jahat she brought her naked niece outside.

I'm very bored. And SAD.

Sorry for the colourful fonts. That's how bored I am. Kenapa nada urg update blog ane except for me and Fen. Sharon walaupun we didn't watch your video hahah.

Bah outs.

sexy red

Birthday!!

updates~!

A year behind, a year ahead

Hari Raya! =D

Reminiscing O.O

tronks..=)

wonder baby

~~~cousin wedding~~~

Ice Age 3

Do Dat Dinosawr

my holiday

woho! kupi day...

wait no more...=D

Life so far....=D

-_-

Happy Birthday to TWENTY ONE

bday c eshaaaaaa..=D

holiday mode

khatam & kawen....<3

so what..right?

an unproductive, weight gaining day..=S

*screams*

under the weather

*krekkrek*

huwaaaaaaaaaaa ='(

Almost lover

updating tah ne!!

tanx a lot nad....

Penyinar Meeting - Brunei AIDS Council

2nd Update: Japanese Pop Culture Week - BJFA

More Updates: H.A.P.P.Y.

Mid Sem Break

introducing.....my niece...ASHA!!

H.A.P.P.Y.

Book launching...our very own young writer =D

updates

Kedewasaan Bernegara

late greeting

BERGHH!!

Rugby baybee

Terpaksa

-28/01/09-

Birthday Greetings

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

Down the memory lane..

Tagged by esya:

chaaarrrrlieeee let's go to the candy mountainn~!

Worries

aku tekajut n teharu...

Finally found the white light =)

bowling

mengusut

happy feet ;)

i am sad ='(

with nothing but your t-shirt on

*drumrolls*

erk~!! exam result status...

semester two timetable is out

dedication to all my friendss

drained out

Happy new year 2009!!

Regret =s

new year!!

new year

my new phone^^

Jasmin's 2008 review

adam?

Two hours left

sheesh

out of boredom

The sub list for FBEPS students

swim swim~~~~~

streten...

Christmas Review

tagged *boredom*

mati ne

*sigh*

aku sedih

my hands smell like crab

~cousin wedding~

screams

krekkrek

drumrolls

tagged boredom

sigh