i was furious with myself. as you all know, i'm really going through a very hard phase in my life. trying to move on but i just couldn't. i know i haven't told any of you what is wrong with me. as fen said that i always keep my problems to myself. i am really sorry about that.

i know some of you think i've moved on. i haven't. aren't i a hypocrite.

i am hurt. still hurt. his memories still linger within me. i miss him so much. he can't see that he's the only one who can make me happy. he thinks he is the problem with me being like this. argh. where was he when i needed him so much. he left me all alone with all the empty promises. i hate him for that. for oppositely, i still love him so much. ='(

why? why did you did this to me?